Time Capsule 2: Snack Skin
june 16 2020 6:40PM
Experience is when you connect to your true self and it meets someone else or something else
It is awakened and felt - it is seen
As I walked the green trimmed glass of the course. I realized I didn’t like simply Experience. Such a broad word that symbolizes life as we know it. No experience is …
i must shape my life. I must be like the snake I saw.
I walked and came upon a hole with a flag in it. The misty rain hit my cheeks and hands. Someone said “you’ll be waiting a while for someone to put through”
And said yes. I thought on about how much bigger I am that every little moving moment on THIS. This shifting moving ball. The little things like food and clothes and small talk, these are bits of culture wrapped around our humanity like a blanket, to protect us and make us feel whole. The truth is that we are everything in all the world inside of us.
When I close my eyes and lean my head back, I can hear the ocean. And when I walked alone in the grass, I felt everything around me. And felt epiphany, the goddess of movement, she said to me - you feel alive when you see yourself for what you are. And the bigger version of that is, your purpose is to elicit feeling.
Adventure and to see this world and to meet the world. To see if I can share this feeling out or if it something that lives within. I feel like a shaman, godly, but I don’t know what to do with it. My language is not broad enough.
Perhaps - it’s finding the feeling of magic in our world. That feeling of special outer body….and the joy of finding it all on my own. No drug tool
I wish for a man to come join me on this path. a counter balance of masculinity….that balance of a strong and equally curious person who feels as full as I do.
I also wish for being able to pledge allegiance to a clan or group I want to honor. I don’t belong to anyone which I want to keep but I am in search of a clan I can bring honor and power to. A community.
I want to build my own life, with no strings to my parents, I have wanted that for a long while. And it is close. I must continue to do things for myself and on my own.
Everything is simple and everything is nothing and everything is star dust.
I’m sitting alone in the bathroom with ear plugs on. I saw snake skin shedded after an epiphany of magic and life hit me while holding a flag at a golf hole. I feel bigger than this life. I feel more than this body. I feel more than these words and this medium to write them in. I feel like all of the world.
if everything I had was taken away tomorrow, what would I do.
Perhaps my magic can be captured In the worlds I build.
