a love story for myself

Did you do it? Did you feel it in that moment just now when I told you to love me. Was the dead seriousness, the heart pulling wrenching needy ness of my plea felt by you and did you automatically say yes but then immediately think, NO. that sums up love. 

It’s a split second decision that happens over and over. And just like the blood pumping through your body, filling each crevice with life and pulse, each beat of your blood is what love is. Guh guh Guh guh Yes no Yes no . because raw emotion, is not constant. Love isn’t constant. Not in the mind at least. In the soul, yes. When you love someone, your inner child, your inner being, the piece that makes a home in your metaphoric heart, that part always knows they love. They love. But the mind tricks and toys and brings in the question marks. Because it can. Because it’s logical. There is a space between each heartbeat.   

we believe our heart will continue pulsing…even when it pauses, we believe it will beat again. love can conquer all if we believe it will continue on…it will be there to keep us alive…

fall in love again and again, talking to you, please. we must.